Saturday, December 25, 2010

Merry Christmas!

 

Dear Grammie,

 

Merry Christmas!! It's just not the same without you. We have loads of snow and blue skies today. I've put your tree up and there are gifts around it. Mum is in the kitchen making eggs and the pups are sniffing about hoping to nick a few bites. Not likely.

I hope you're happy today with your loved ones and please know that we love and miss you.

 

Love you always,

Kit

Sunday, September 12, 2010

Happy Birthday!

 

 

Dear Grammie,

 

Happy 81st Birthday!!

It was an absolutely beautiful day here today. You would've been very happy. Cool outside, and blue skies. I thought of you all day today  and missed you very much.

Things are moving along here. Nothing too exciting.

I will write more later. I'm sorry I haven't written much, but you know I'm not much of a writer of letters.

 

I miss you, Grammie.

 

Love you always,

Kit

Wednesday, June 16, 2010

Booya

 

Dear Grammie,

 

I just realized that we'll never have Boiled Dinner together again. Remember how we used to sit at your table and eat our dinner and pass the butter back and forth for the crusty bread?

Dammit, this sucks.

Miss you terribly!


Love you always,
Kit

Wednesday, May 26, 2010

The Dig

 

Dear Grammie,

 

My Steam client was updating and it popped up an advert for LucasArts' Adventure Pack including "The Dig". I remember when you bought that game for Cousin M back in 1995 or so. Seeing it made my heart hurt.

I miss you so much Grammie.

 

Love you always,

Kit

Saturday, April 24, 2010

Long Time...


Dear Grammie,


It's been a pretty long time since I've last written. A lot has happened since then. Hopefully I'll be able to give you a full update without forgetting anything.

It's been over a month since my last letter. Mom bought a house that I've dubbed "Canary Lane" because it's yellow. Yeah, I know, yellow - figures, doesn't it? One of my least favorite colors. I do like the house a lot though. It's smaller and compact. Seems pretty efficient and it has a nice backyard for Doodle and Peanut to play in. We have yet to fence it in though, so until then they have to be on tie-outs. Neither seem to mind much. Peanut is in her seventh heaven out there, rolling in the grass. It's really funny. I'm hoping to get a landscaping plan worked up this summer. I don't expect much to get planted though, but it will be enough to fence it and get the plan drawn up. I'd like a small garden, some dwarf apple trees, and some flowers for color. I'd like to keep everything low-maintenance. Mum thinks the lawn needs to be power raked and core aerated, and she's probably right. I guess we'll see how it goes and what can get done this year.

The floors have been refinished at Canary Lane. They're just beautiful. As you know, they were rather orange and needed some TLC in a few places. The new finish is more natural with a hint of honey. It really brings out the grain and natural beauty of the wood! I just love them. I think you'd like them too. I wish you could see them. Well, maybe you can, I guess I don't really know, do I?

I gave an interview on Thursday evening on a local radio station regarding Autism and Asperger Syndrome. People tell me that I did very well. I don't really know what that means. I just tried to answer his questions so that he and people listening would be able to understand. Speaking a different "language" than most folks can be tricky, but I try to speak so they will understand. Often, I'm just temped to move to a hermit's shack in the middle of nowhere with a couple dogs and call it good, but that's probably a little extreme.

The weather has been very nice lately. You'd love it. Cooler temps with lots of sun. There were a couple of pretty warm days, but there was a breeze so it wasn't too bad. I've dug out the shorts now, and have to get some new sandals, but I'd say Summer is here! Hardly any bugs yet, you'd be happy to know. Bugs suck.

I've given Doodle and Peanut their first doses of Frontline® and HeartGuard® so they're ready when the nasties come out. They both need baths, but the tub doesn't work yet at Canary Lane, so Peanut will have to wait a couple weeks. Doodle will get one when it gets a bit warmer or maybe if I can dig up some cash, I'll take them to the self-serve dog wash place down south and scrub them up.

I finished the new website that I was working on. I pretty much took today off and settled down with a good book. Mum thinks I should take up my art and writing again, but I'm not sure I have the time. Maybe I'll find it at Canary Lane...who knows?

I went to the Mayo Clinic for some doctoring and found out that my Thyroid is not working enough. I have to take pills now for at least a year and then be checked again. I also have Sleep Apnea, due to my weight. I have a machine to use now when I sleep and it seems to be helping. I've also been instructed to lose weight, which I was planning to work on anyway. Hopefully I will be able to lose enough that my thyroid will normalize and I won't have to use the sleeping machine any longer. That's at least a year down the road, though. Patience and consistency is key.

Well, I suppose I should go now. My arm isn't quite healed up from the tendinitis flare-up I had from scrubbing the floor at Canary Lane. The doctor said I had to rest the arm for a week. A week! What on earth am I supposed to do for a week without my "smart" arm?! Oh yes, read books! Okay, sounds good to me!

I will write more soon. I miss you so much, Grammie!


Love you always,
Kit

Thursday, March 11, 2010

Peanut Turns Eight


Dear Grammie,

Yesterday your Peanut turned eight years old. It was a pretty good day to be a Peanut! She got to go on a car ride and goof around outside when it wasn't raining. She's ben such a good girl.

We really don't need the rain at all since the river is up. At least the melt has been relatively slow. Hopefully we won't flood too bad this year. I just get tired of the grey days.

I'll write more later, but Kaboodle has a killer headache and I need to tend to her.

I miss you, Grammie.


Love you always,
Kit

Wednesday, January 27, 2010

Heartbreak


Dear Grammie,

I was updating Mum's computer tonight after our small birthday celebration and I opened her iPhoto for some reason and there was your picture. I looked at all the pictures of you and I could hardly breathe. My heart was heavy in my chest. I can't believe you're gone. Seeing you and me in your house was almost too much to bear. I can't think of you as gone for the rest of my life. I have to think of you as on a long vacation somewhere without postal service or telephones. I don't think my mind or heart could stand to think of it as anything else.

I'm going to look at headstones for you tomorrow. How morbid is that? Pretty morbid, considering I can't think of you as deceased. I know you're gone in my head, but my heart can't think of you that way.

Crap, this stinks.

I miss you something awful, Grammie.


Love you always,
Kit

Saturday, January 23, 2010

Melancholy and Infinite Sadness


Dear Grammie,

I think about you every day it seems and miss you more each time. I couldn't sleep last night and I kept thinking of you and your last moments here. I wasn't with you at the very end and it just kills me inside. I should've been there.

I sit here at 11:46 PM two days before my birthday and I realize I'm depressed. Kaboodle is sleeping in her chair, what a surprise, and the dogs are cooped up again. She only wakes up to yell at Peanut. I feel like I'm trapped in a bad dream and cannot wake. I want to cry. I want to scream. I want to do something to change it, but my hands are tied.

My head is messed up and I don't know how to fix it. I go through the motions of being fine everyday, but I'm not. It's like my life is slipping through my fingers and the chaos is sucking me down into the depths of despair.

Grammie, I miss you terribly. You were always my light when the darkness encroached upon my world. Now there is no light to follow, no light to see, no light to give me the strength I need to hang in there. I am lost. I'm trying to be my own light, but I don't know how and I'm so afraid that I'll fail. I don't want to fail at yet another thing and one so very important to me. I know you're gone, but if you can hear me, please, give me strength to make it through this darkness.


Love you always,
Kit

Sunday, January 3, 2010

Be Proud of Your Peanut


Dear Grammie,

You should be so proud of your little Peanut. It's currently -4ยบ outside and Peanut goes out and goes potty like a good puppy. She goes fast, but she goes.

Yes, I carry her out to her potty spot every time. I think she'd get too cold walking to it, doing her doggy business, and then walking back. She has such short fur and a naked little pink tummy.

She's so good. She hasn't had an accident in months. I'm so proud of her!

Just wanted to let you know that you can be proud of her.

I miss you Grammie!


Love you always,
Kit